Even after yesterday's realisation that I hadn't lost much weight after the first week, I still am finding it SO difficult to focus on the task at hand. Granted yesterday was a tricky day for reasons I won't go into here. Suffice to say that friendship stresses became overwhelming and my plans to go for a run in the evening were scuppered by paranoia (that ended up not being paranoia at all!) about leaving the house.
Anyway, now I am rethinking my whole process. A friend has suggested I try Slimming World, which I'd actually like to do. But I think Mark is kind of against me doing anything that costs money.
I don't really know what to do to be honest. I am kind of at the end of my tether with my body. I've spent so much of my adult life trying to lose weight. I just can't deal with being unhealthy any longer.
It doesn't help that I don't have a car anymore, which means I can't easily go for a fresh food shop. The farmer's market comes to town once a week, but their selection isn't that great, and frankly I would much rather go somewhere like Asda, where it is cheaper.
I love vegetables and salads and such, so sticking to a diet is no problem IF I have the food available. But when I know that it's not in the house and I have to go for a shop, I just give up.
I've thought about taking the pram and walking to Sainsbury's (a couple miles away), but frankly, it'd be no different than going to the corner shop, because the pram can't hold much, and I'd be limited in what I could take away!
This past weekend, I did think ahead a little bit. I made some homemade breakfast burritos which I froze for brekkie through the week. And I made some homemade protein bars, as well, which should be handy for workouts.
I'll post up recipes soon.
Anyway, for now, I am just kind of lost. I want to make good choices, but I'm also at a loss as to how to keep fresh food in the house at all times. I need to plan better. I need HELP! :(
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